Human nature resists belief in that which cannot be seen. Yet, love, the most powerful human emotion, can only be seen through one human being’s actions toward another. No one has ever seen love as a physical object. The truth is we can only feel love and we can see its manifestations. The same holds for our beliefs in a Higher Being. We see the precise order that exists in what should be a chaotic universe, we see the miracle of life in which every human being has a unique existence. I think one fundamental challenge is that human beings naturally want to construct an image of God in their own likeness. In reality the form of God is probably incomprehensible. Similar to love,  we prove God through sentience. God touches us through the sun’s rays, calms us through the rain, invigorates us through the wind. God shows himself through unconditional, universal love. I believe God is always revealing his presence, it simply requires us to open our hearts.

My search for God began a few years ago. I spent most of my life believing without substance. I grew up with an idea of God that was bound by rituals and ceremonies. Even in the face of repeated adversity I never turned to faith to heal me. It wasn’t until my Dad was suddenly diagnosed with Stage IV cancer that I began to dismantle my beliefs probably because I needed them to withstand what I was set to face. In order to keep afloat, I needed to cling to faith and hope. Yet, I looked around and there was no physical evidence. Not practically in my own life and certainly not in any academic sense. I grew up surrounded by people who expected me to just believe, blind faith. I always envied that gift. As a bookish type and a physician in training, I need facts and proof to show me. I need to understand. And so my spiritual trek began. I wanted to start this blog to share my tenuous path to finding God. His form is still not clear to me, in my examination I think the idea of God in all formal religions is a derivative of one universal concept. I can only provide my insights, my perspectives, my stories, my examination, my conclusions and send it into the world. Perhaps there will be someone, a kindred spirit, who can find hope in my words.